blubber

ok so my goal
1 month...get back to how I was 2 years ago [weight wise]
over doing it is the step I'm taking.


thanks k bye



in other news
I'm not taking summer school for the first time in my life...
which is really weird

I'm going to have free time
since the economy still sucks balls
and I don't particularly want to work at the kennel more than the shoe shit store....

hmmmm
I really really really don't enjoy free time like most people
I think I have a weird sort of anxiety about not being busy
it makes me really uncomfortable
so I'll go to the gym a lot
walk zoso
shoot as much film as I can and wait for the open lab to start so I can work in there as much as possible


I need models
maybe I should start networking on those I need models type of sites
I wish I could just pull some out of my pocket.fudge.





I need to catch up on sleep

le sigh

you


my house
my room
my bed
and feeling comfortable
you looked comfortable

I needed this











it was a good morning

this is it :]

I'm really excited.

I can finally say I'm on my way toward being a serious photographer
So far I have 3 jobs lined up for the summer
and I'm going to try this networking thing so I can get more!


gah I feel so good about this
I can't even describe it :]


I can't wait
for all of this to fall into place


I'm going to start a 4x5 project during the summer too.


in other news though
I'm busy
I like it
but then I always wonder about things


well actually I really don't mind that I'm busy
I mind other things though
recently it's been eating away at me slowly
I can't sleep
and when I wake up I think about it
before I go to sleep I think about it
whenever I'm not busy I think about it
but I don't want to think about it anymore