I should just be able to let things go...
let people go. it should be easier for me.
it's like I keep stabbing myself once my wounds are healed, but why?
do I like feeling this
it's painful
I know
I hate crying
especially about you.
I think you know I do.
I know something is wrong with me
but I don't want to talk about it with anyone
the only person I ever used to talk to would lecture me
and I would find it annoying.
because she's found a new outlook on life
I'm happy for her
but I need comforting
not lecturing.
so I'll keep it inside
again.
I shouldn't have seen you.
it had almost been 3 months.
I can only guess what you were doing during that time
I shouldn't assume or make up stupid stories in my head but I will
because that's all I can do, because I won't ask you.
the only thing that bugs me is that I don't understand
why you can't care just a little
and why I can't stop giving a fuck what goes on in your life.
because you don't care.
maybe it's pms
idk fuck it.
I don't want to become a bitter person with a cold heart.
I want to trust people and feelings
but today I think it's all bullshit.
