I should just be able to let things go...
let people go. it should be easier for me.
it's like I keep stabbing myself once my wounds are healed, but why?
do I like feeling this
it's painful
I know
I hate crying
especially about you.
I think you know I do.
I know something is wrong with me
but I don't want to talk about it with anyone
the only person I ever used to talk to would lecture me
and I would find it annoying.
because she's found a new outlook on life
I'm happy for her
but I need comforting
not lecturing.
so I'll keep it inside
again.
I shouldn't have seen you.
it had almost been 3 months.
I can only guess what you were doing during that time
I shouldn't assume or make up stupid stories in my head but I will
because that's all I can do, because I won't ask you.
the only thing that bugs me is that I don't understand
why you can't care just a little
and why I can't stop giving a fuck what goes on in your life.
because you don't care.
maybe it's pms
idk fuck it.
I don't want to become a bitter person with a cold heart.
I want to trust people and feelings
but today I think it's all bullshit.
3 comments:
i know it's hard letting people go, it seems harder when they don't care because you want them to care so badly you keep trying, thinking maybe they'll change, maybe their feelings will change for you. it sucks when you hope and pray that maybe the next time around will be different, but its almost always the same. im sorry that you're going through this :[ i know the feeling. every time i think im finally getting over beau he texts me and im like wtf. it's like he knows that im like "im okay now" and then he texts me just to mess with me again. and then after that im like "oh well he's talking to me so i'll text him" then i wait around all day for a reply that's one word. it's stupid! we need to learn how to just let these stupid boys go. they aren't worth our time, at all.
p.s. lets hang out soon, i needa show you that picture of you know who ;]
"it's like he knows that im like "im okay now" and then he texts me just to mess with me again."
the way you said that is so true.
we deserve better.
sometimes it's just easier said than done though :/
yes please let's hang out soon
haha and I need to see how adorable that picture is of _____ lol
:]
thank you for understanding how I feel btw :]
yea it definitely is better said than done :[
like i keep convincing myself that hes good, i'll make excuses for him but i know that i dont deserve this. whatev. i havent talked to him in a few days and i dont like him like that anymore, so woo!
you're a champ tho, 3 months without seeing him? you're strong, i know you can get through this and forget about him once and for all.
we should hang out next week! :]
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