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Love

Life is fun.
And I hope I never forget that


It's good to feel love from people.
Friends, Family, and one day a charming man will love me the way I always hoped for.


This weekend was very uplifting, the breath of fresh air I needed.


I saw 500 days of summer.
good movie, painfully true and it had a good message
joseph gordon-levitt is my new rush<3
ahahaha

nothing

I really don't want to feel so cold
like my insides died
and my heart is frozen in ice

my mind is still everywhere and nowhere at the same time
my mood is so uncaring.
but only when I'm alone.


when there aren't situations that occupy my senses, my thought process.


I am tired.
I don't want to say I regret anything because I guess I don't

but I would like to apologize to myself
because I never wanted you to feel any pain
but we were just so naive to everything
we were lured in by that light

like the prey of the Angler fish
we didn't see that mangled mess of teeth and pain we were swimming to.
I've had my fair share of pain

no one knows. and no one can understand
maybe that's why we've done the things we've done.
excuses to validate bad judgment.


life is wonderful and painful all at once.
almost everything is running smoothly.
and I am so grateful for all the good
I'm just trying to push out the bad
and I feel like I need to get a lot off my chest.
but I don't trust anyone with my feeling. not anymore.

this is me

this is me.
pretty honestly


fresh from sleep
no makeup
barely thinking.

you can only guess the secrets that lie within those eyes.









actually I honestly don't believe that eyes are the windows to your soul.
i don't really know what is...
eyes can be telling, but they can also be fake.

I hear the mouth is more telling..
that may be true
I don't really know.

cuz everything around me's changed
but the garden that you've planted remains

have heart

so last night I had a dream
you were in it


do dreams really mean anything?
probably


we were in the car, your friends in the backseat and someone handed you a photograph...and said "you were so happy when you were with her, the happiest you've been."
and I guess it was a picture of you and your ex.
and I was in the front seat with you and you didn't say anything
and I felt a sort of shame, embarrassment, and a sadness slipped into my stomach.

then I woke up at 6:15
and it was cool because the sky looked amazing

I don't really care about the dream...it was just strange...and all those feelings felt very real. But yeah I felt great when I woke up :] haha




I'm off to a wedding up north tomorrow
I like wedding even though I always say I hate them ;]


I bought film today
and I am extremely bored right now yaaay

Phoenix

I love Phoenix oh so much


There music always puts me in the best mood
makes me want to dance around...ME the bitch who hates dancing! haha

it's playful, nostalgic, perfect!
I love his voice.


AND I've recently stumbled upon Horse Feathers
I love them too.


Music is medicine for my soul