blubber

ok so my goal
1 month...get back to how I was 2 years ago [weight wise]
over doing it is the step I'm taking.


thanks k bye



in other news
I'm not taking summer school for the first time in my life...
which is really weird

I'm going to have free time
since the economy still sucks balls
and I don't particularly want to work at the kennel more than the shoe shit store....

hmmmm
I really really really don't enjoy free time like most people
I think I have a weird sort of anxiety about not being busy
it makes me really uncomfortable
so I'll go to the gym a lot
walk zoso
shoot as much film as I can and wait for the open lab to start so I can work in there as much as possible


I need models
maybe I should start networking on those I need models type of sites
I wish I could just pull some out of my pocket.fudge.





I need to catch up on sleep

le sigh

you


my house
my room
my bed
and feeling comfortable
you looked comfortable

I needed this











it was a good morning

this is it :]

I'm really excited.

I can finally say I'm on my way toward being a serious photographer
So far I have 3 jobs lined up for the summer
and I'm going to try this networking thing so I can get more!


gah I feel so good about this
I can't even describe it :]


I can't wait
for all of this to fall into place


I'm going to start a 4x5 project during the summer too.


in other news though
I'm busy
I like it
but then I always wonder about things


well actually I really don't mind that I'm busy
I mind other things though
recently it's been eating away at me slowly
I can't sleep
and when I wake up I think about it
before I go to sleep I think about it
whenever I'm not busy I think about it
but I don't want to think about it anymore

so much for that

this didn't last very long

I made a tumblr instead :P


I'll probably still use this to be a whiny brat.

http://candacewakefield.tumblr.com/
if you want to lurk me i don't care

spring time

spring is definitely my favorite season.

it's the in between
the change


the weather is perfect

you get a bit of everything



I need another backpack
for all my shizz when I go out taking pictures.

because I love this movie

home sweet home

NOT.

well I'm back

My trip was everything I hoped it would be :]
it was the breath of fresh air I needed.


I don't even know how to describe what seeing such beautiful landscapes does to me.
but it's an unbelievable feeling.

We left at 4 am [I drove most of the way]
but yeah as we passed through Lompoc or some other little town after that, the sky lightened and it was such a beautiful shade of blue. We were driving through clouds, and my only regret was that I couldn't find a place to pull over and snap shots in this fog, and of the clouds in this valley.

I'll just drive back ;]

every moment was breathtaking!
and I know I didn't take as many pictures as I thought I would
but I took enough
and it gives me reference for where I want to go if I go back.

I need to go with someone who enjoys hiking
and won't get tired easily...
because once I'm in the mood I don't want to slow down
and I want to explore every flower rich field, and sea cliff that comes my way


sigh.


and san francisco was of course amazing.
marianne and I walked through golden gate park again
all the way down to the beach
the water was so cold, but once I was numb it felt incredible.
and it was so clear!

the next morning I wandered off by myself because she had school.
I had breakfast at a little place on Haight st
photographed some random things
tried my continued multiple exposure project.

then made my way back

I wish I could have stayed.
but I know I'll have plenty more opportunities to explore the coast and sf


on the drive back one of the last stops I made was by a lighthouse.
it was so serene
I was of course not upclose and personal with the lighthouse
but in a field of yellow flowers that covered one of the cliffs near the sea that overlooked the lighthouse.


BEAUTIFUL!
aaaah


now I'm tired
my eyes were on overload!


spring break has been good to me so far
and hopefully it continues in this positive direction

another photo adventure later this week :]
and I'm going to continue playin with the 1:4 lens I borrowed.

great for portraits!!!aaaaah